i think people generally like me, and enjoy my, er, i was gonna say "presence"
but that doesn't really work for online friends as much. i guess, i think people
enjoy when i Do Stuff, be it interact with them or just post shit. and that's
good but probably also drives the fears of, like, if i do something wrong then
people won't like me anymore or they'll think i'm a bit annoying. it's not as
much "everyone secretly hates me", like i know that isn't true, it's "some
people secretly think i'm kinda annoying sometimes", or if they don't, that
could easily be the case, cuz i've convinced myself that my personality is
annoying to some people and instead of embracing that as some people do (again,
i envy those people) i try to hide parts of myself, and i obsess over everything
i do/post to others to an irrational degree