emotions are so weird lmao.

i feel like i can categorize my emotions partially into, like, feeling good vs
feeling bad, but also a spectrum of "feeling emotions" vs, uh, "not feeling
emotions". or something. like, the intensity of how i Feel things and it affects
my actual personality too, like, am i super secluded and just on my own where
you wouldn't know i existed if you didn't already, or am i just, doing lots of
stuff (in this case, writing in the reality log after lots of breaks where i
just don't write anything for a week), it's weird and i don't think it's normal
but i feel like it happens often enough that i can't pin down my personality at
all because it just constantly changes. like i'm simultaneously shy and also not
shy but not at the same time, it's just you never know what i am until you do
but then you don't again because it might've changed

i'm kinda just a mixed bag of everything. hey maybe that's why people say they
relate to what i write here lmao, cuz like, i write a little bit of everything.
or maybe people actually do relate and i'm not as unique as i thought, which to
be clear wouldn't be a bad thing in this case, it would be, just, a Thing, wow
i'm feeling weirdly hyper with how i'm writing rn i'm confused but not really
complaining? uhhhhhhhh