i... am, really bad at not fucking basic things up. i kinda hate it and i feel
like there's lots of opportunities that i have that i just drop the ball on.
like idk sometimes it ends up working out but i look really unreliable because
of it, probably because i *am* unreliable and i hate it and i'm sorry

speaking of unreliability i still have lots of stuff i need to reply to and all
that and it just feels, overwhelming. like i actually want to talk to people and
stuff and i enjoy doing so but, god idk