today i was very antisocial. well, today and yesterday too. like, putting off
responding to messages for some reason, just not really wanting to talk or be
bothered by anyone at all in any way, and like part of that was being sick but
even besides that. and like i tried to do a simple thing where i just asked on
fedi hey what's everyone up to but even then i just kinda, ghosted the people
that replied lol. cuz i was like ok i'll do something to acknowledge these
responses but then i just, didn't. and it sucks cuz i think maybe people will
think i don't want to talk to them or something, and also idk why this is
happening rn lol, like, i feel like not only does my mood fluctuate, but my
entire personality does as well. cuz sometimes i'm really outgoing and other
times i just want to be completely left alone, but just like with the mood
fluctuations i don't think there's ever really a reason i sway the way i do.
it's weird and i kinda wish i were just consistent or something.

also still haven't done shit in the past few days, kinda still bothering me, for
reasons i already went over