guess who forgot to take melatonin and can't sleep?

while on the topic of things that are unhealthy: i forgot to eat yesterday.
like, at all lol. i ate a couple granola bars at the end of the day and that's
it.

and ALSO i missed my fucking classes again! i uh, idk at this point it's hard
for me to even convince myself i'm not doing it intentionally. even though i
know i'm not, like, it happens enough that, yeah. and like given that i'm still
awake right now... i mean, yeah. my plan tomorrow is like, go to bed actually
really early, and take melatonin so i actually fall asleep, and i need to remind
myself that it's not too late to get shit under control and i shouldn't just
completely give up.

i didnt even feel super depressed or anything. like all things considered the
day was alright. it's just, well, i don't know. something something mood doesn't
correlate with the stuff that happens i guess.

i *definitely* have more to write but i really dont feel like writing more rn so
maybe later