stuff i forgot to mention:

1. i passed all my classes this term! and i wasnt expecting that and im really
proud of myself and i feel like i can actually do this maybe. like now i know im
capable, which before i felt like i wasn't
2. i really don't like how "trans" almost always means transitioning from one
binary gender to another. obviously to the general public that's what comes to
mind (half of the country is apparently unaware that trans men even exist), but
even within the trans community that sentiment still shows up regularly. like
sometimes i see memes about the pipeline from cis man to trans catgirl or
whatever lol and like that's cool if that was your experience but not everyone
is you. like even yesterday with the people i was hanging out with, they're both
trans women so yeah they're view on things is skewed by that (in the same way
that cis people's view on gender and stuff is skewed), which on it's own isn't a
bad thing, but like for example there was one point where i was imitating
peach's voice and i did like a high girly voice and one of them said "that was
pretty good, you should consider becoming a woman", and she obviously meant it
as a joke but it made me a little bit uncomfortable. i may not know what i am
but i know what i'm not, and i wish people would stop suggesting that i'm on
some path towards being a woman, even when it's just a joke. also i should say
that i really haven't been thinking about gender and stuff *that much* this
week, there's a lot to SAY about it but this wasn't like a dominant thing or
anything, but everything else can be summed up pretty quickly.