im like, internally screaming, and it would be cool if i could internally shut
up or whatever.

i also have to keep reminding myself that it's ok to feel things. recently ive
caught myself telling myself that i'm complaining too much or being a downer and
like, yeah maybe i have been complaining a lot or being super sad, ig that's
just where i am. now im lying down to try to calm myself down. maybe if i can
keep my own damn promises i'll do some more work later tonight when i feel more
calm and collected