about to go to bed (gonna like, not forget to take melatonin tonight lol), but
want to write something real quick. i feel better now than i did. which is to
say that everything i wrote previously still applies, but like, lesser so, and
i'm able to manage my thoughts and emotions a bit i guess. at this point im
like, 60% sure im gonna just drop out. funnily enough earlier i was more sure
about this but now, idk. probably will but we'll see what happens. im too tired
to write anything more thats all