so, i, like, dont belong in lavender lounge. its just not for me. everyone is
super nice and all that but, like, im just not gay/queer/whatever in the same
way that everyone else is. i dont fit in. i think i liked the idea of this cuz
it's really just a safe space for people who are seen by society as
""different"" to be with each other and just be supportive and all that and,
well, i also feel like im different than everyone else, but im different in a
different way. so i need to somehow find some group that's like this, but with
people like me. and i don't know where to find that. i don't even know what i'm
looking for. just a lot of feeling like i dont fit in, like i dont really belong
anywhere. im just different from everyone, not so different that i can't get by
i guess, but something is just off about me. and maybe that's not a bad thing,
but right now i dont even know what it is or where others like me are, so. i
think ive been going in circles repeating myself and not making much sense so
idk i just feel emotions rn