i feel... very shitty. actually pretty terrible rn. thats ok.

so tonight im gonna go to bed relatively early. and actually take melatonin so
i, like, fall asleep. then im gonna wake up early. my only class is at 1
tomorrow, but im gonna wake up at like 10 or 11. to start the day right. cuz i
suspect the awful sleep for the last two nights probably plays into how shit i'm
feeling rn lol.

unrelated: i fluctuate between "yeah im definitely NB" and "actually kinda feel
like a guy rn". so i think that's genderfluid or something. which is kinda cool
tbh.

motivation to work on hare stuff has been all over the place. sometimes im so
hyperfocused i do nothing else, sometimes ill do it just cuz im bored or
whatever, sometimes i just can't find the motivation to do it at all. right now
im like, in between 2 and 3. closer to 3.