one more thing i forgot to bring up: ok so like, recently, i've been coming up
with new songs in my dreams. like whenever i wake up i'll have to record myself
humming/singing a song i wrote in a dream. this has been happening consistently.
this did not used to happen. and now it's happening all the time. and, i can't
write music when i'm awake. as much as i wish i could, i just can't think of
songs that sound good when i'm awake. but in my dreams they just come to me. and
it's not just the melody, it's the full ass song. backing tracks, harmonies,
instruments, everything, which sucks cuz i can't record that as well so i'll
probably forget all of that detail and not be able to come up with it when i'm
awake, but yeah. i should learn to use a DAW and actually, like, make some
music. clearly i have some material to work with. and hopefully that continues
to happen cuz i like waking up with songs in my head that i made myself, even if
unconsciously so. fuck it's almost 3am i really should sleep, also like, to get
my sleep schedule back on track, nn, oh shit abrupt ending ooooOOooOo,