a few things

1. felt lonely and bored and sad today. just one of those meh days. nothing
super notable, just happens sometimes
2. accidentally didnt get out of bed until like 1:30. that wasnt supposed to
happen and also im supposed to have a healthy sleep schedule so yeah. i dont
think there's a correlation between this and the shitty-ish day, i mean it's
possible but i doubt it
3. gender is funny. like, today there were multiple instances where i felt like,
yeah, im nonbinary. i *think* it was gender dysphoria or whatever? random
occasional moments of discomfort when being reminded of masculinity or whatever.
i think that's probably exactly what that is. but it's interesting cuz like, rn,
i feel pretty damn confident, like, yeah , i feel nb. but other times i don't
feel that way. i feel much more confused and like "but i think maybe i am
actually cis". so like that's either just general confusion or being genderfluid
or something. it's kinda interesting and cool and if it weren't for the fact
that sometimes it's an identity crisis i would probably really enjoy learning
more about myself, and like rn i am, so that's cool