im kinda tired so idk how much i'll write but i want to write something.

1. mlk day was yesterday so no classes. but yet despite having a 3-day weekend
and not really doing much related to classes at all in that time, i still feel
overwhelmed with classes, just from today alone.
2. sleep schedule has shifted again. im now pretty consistently waking up at
like 12 everyday. which isn't *terrible*; there are some days where i need to
wake up earlier and i make that happen, but otherwise i'm pretty consistent and
not staying in bed any later than that, which is good. still probably better if
i wake up earlier though. ideally i stick with the 9:30 thing. but also
sometimes it's late at night and i want to stay up just a little bit longer to
finish working on something and yeah. idk where i'm going with this
3. someone else emailed me about the reality log and it made me feel really good
that someone else found it and were somehow inspired by it or whatever. so that
was really nice :)
4. working on hare is both good and bad rn: good because, well, i really enjoy
working on it, it's very fun, and bad because i feel like i have something to
prove, or i have to live up to an expectation for myself, an expectation that
i'm just a machine that churns out patches left and right and is super efficient
or whatever. i work on hare because it's fun but if i'm not careful i'll burn
myself out really quickly. i try to keep reminding myself to not care about that
perception and to just do what makes me happy. but sometimes i think about it.
5. everything is intermixed with feelings of loneliness
6. i think i have more to say but im tired and dont really wanna write any more
rn, maybe i will later