hm, ok, do i actually hate being me? if you asked me even like yesterday i would
say yes, absolutely. but, idk. i think, with the right people, i like being me.
with people who know me and understand me and like to be around me. in lots of
scenarios i hate who i am, hell maybe even in most. but that doesn't mean i
entirely hate my personality. would i want to be someone else? maybe? maybe not?
i think there's people who exist who like the type of person i am (even if they
don't know me, they would like the personality), and maybe think that the things
i consider faults are, like, idk, cute or something. my awkwardness and shyness
while also being open and outgoing *sometimes* to certain people and stuff. or
maybe this is just my mood talking. idk but i also think that if i were someone
else i would lose a lot of people who i otherwise don't want to lose. and maybe
i'd have more friends, and have an easier time making them, and i guess this is
just FOMO for something that is purely hypothetical or something. i should sleep
it is almost 1. yeah im gonna do that gn