alright its been a couple days. mainly because i dont really know how ive been
feeling? like simmultaneously fine and also bleh, but not like in between, just
both at the same time. except also no thats not right either. i dont really know
what my emotions have been, its not even "all over the place", its just kinda,
idk, can't really be described by words. which isnt necessarily a bad thing? but
also it isnt a good thing. i think some things have been largely uneventful but
also some things havent been. i dont know. the one thing i HAVE noticed is (and
this isn't a super recent development, it's been happening for a little bit at
this point) my personality has been changing a bit. that is, i'm more reserved
and keep more to myself mostly... while also caring less about what others think
of me (still got a long way to go on that front though). but mainly just kinda,
doing my own thing and not interacting much with others. which like again not a
bad thing i guess but also not a good thing, i feel like there's a healthy
balance to strive for there that i haen't quite achieved. i also don't think
this is permanent at all, this is definitely temporary because my personality
changes like this all the time i think. idk life is funny sometimes