it's weird. i *should* be stressing the fuck out right now. i'm slacking off and
failing my classes, there's a very good chance i'm gonna lose financial aid and
frankly my future is just uncertain. might end up having to drop. and from there
who the fuck knows. but... i feel... fine? fine isn't the right word. i don't
feel fine. but i've already stressed the fuck out about it. and being stressed
doesn't make me more productive. i don't do things just because they stress me
out. like, i know stuff *should* be a priority, but i still don't do it. so now
i'm just like okay yeah shit's fucked but at this point it's probably too late,
and even if it's not too late, idk. i definitely should be panicing rn and to an
extent i kind of am, i'm not entirely calm and collected, but it's just,
whatever ig. i'm still existing so ig maybe things will work out in some way or
another, i'll be going down some path, idk what path but it'll be a thing that
may or may not suck we'll see