im very jealous of people who are able to just, like, live busy lives, and not
get burnt out. actually no scratch that, i'm jealous of people who are able to
live normal lives where they have a completely normal reasonable workload, and
who are able to like, do it, without any major issues most of the time, and not
get burnt out. i have a friend like this, she's in marching band and does so
much and is so busy AND has time to write music in her free time. i dont get it.
i would never be able to come close to doing anything like that. same with tom
scott, he made a video called "i can't keep doing this forever" or something
like that and he said "this isn't another rant on creator burnout" and showed
how busy he is and how consistent he is with just managing all of this shit and
doing it and it like, idk. it almost made me a bit angry to watch. not that i
have any real reason to be angry (im being careful with my words here because im
allowed to feel emotions but also this really didnt warrant anger, and like i
have nothing against tom scott in the slightest, or anyone who is as productive
as him, im just jealous and it makes me sad that i could never live up to this.
so much for all that potential i had or whatever). like how am i supposed to
keep up with everything i have to do AND have time and energy to do hobbies AND
have a mildly active social life AND take care of myself physically. like how do
people do that. oh speaking of taking care of myself physically, ive been eating
like absolute trash lately but somehow it hasnt caught up to me yet? like i
still look healthy and i dont feel SUPER unhealthy, but also i definitely
shouldnt eat the way i do, but idfk, theres really not that many options here on
campus as a vegetarian and also snacks are tasty, plus whenever im bored and
doing nothing i instinctively snack on junk food because its something to do,
which again i know i probably shouldnt but i do. hm i kinda wanna socialize rn