it's been a long time since the last entry. basically i forgot for a bit, then
thought ok i have a lot to catch up on here, which was a little bit overwhelming
so i put it off. then continued to put it off. and the amount of stuff that i
had to "catch up" the reality log with was piling up. and i basically am forcing
myself to write this, acknowledging that i am not writing any of that backlog.
none of it. unless i absolutely want to, but like realistically no im not. thats
just a big gap thats not gonna be written down. and thats ok because the point
of this isnt to form a cohesive narrative or write everything that happens. i
just am tired of not writing here, and theres a lot of gaps in this especially
since where i left off but who cares im here now hi