i just wanna write a quick entry so not all of the entries here are depressing,
cuz even tho thats when im most compelled to write i dont think it should all be
negative. tbh today was a good day, despite the fact that i bombed an exam and
am basically guaranteed to fail the course, tbh whatever ill end up being fine
who cares. like it was a good day and i did stuff and it was nice. i *will* say,
i was playing tetris a bit earlier and uhh i had a weird passive suicidal
thought, again not a "do it" but a "ok but what if, and like how would you go
about it", and i pretty quickly caught myself and realized ok whoa, its an
intrusive thought and obviously im not gonna bully myself about it cuz i cant
help what i think but it was concerning, cuz i wasnt even feeling sad or down at
all really, i thought i was in a decent mood but it just kinda happened? like
super casually, as if it wasnt even a big deal. so idk that might be cause for
concern. but other than that yeah, i dont feel like writing much else so itll
stop here.

p.s. yes im still awake, my sleep schedule is beyond fucked at this point