i have a lot of stuff i need to do. i should do it. ill do it at some point.

damn wait ok so i said "i should" and i attended a shitty talk a week or so ago
about burnout, and it ended up being kinda shitty (the entire premise was that
burnout is unavoidable but u can manage it, which like that was just presented
as a fact with nothing to back it which i found weird cuz i always thought
burnout was avoidable and u should strive to avoid it whenever possible, but
eh). but anyways one of the things said was when u say phrases beginning with "i
should" like i did above, ur probably already in burnout. and like damn, im
burned out of life. like, just everything, basic ass responsibilities, things i
need to do that i literally havent even started on but yet thinking of them
takes up so much mental energy that i drain myself before even starting, just
everything. im so used to burnout that i just live with it. life is fun :')