so ok heres the deal. i dont like the short entries. i feel like i put a lot of
pressure on myself to write down every thought i have to create some kind of
permanent record that can then be looked back on to form a cohesive story or
whatever, all while keeping each entry satisfying on its own, and ive found
myself discouraged from writing because of that. cuz i sure as hell cant write
every thought i think because i am thinking like this 24/7. so thats impossible.
so i cant form a cohesive story with this medium because there will always be
gaps and missing pieces. i dont think it makes sense to treat this as something
to be looked back on, or even read at all. not that i wont keep saving these
entries, if anything for some weird psychological reason i feel like that
encourages me to write, but idk. so, with that being said, im gonna keep using
that script i made, but i wont not do long entries, but i might sometimes do
short entries too. just whatever im in the mood for, and notably, only when im
in the mood, not all the time. writing shouldnt be a chore or an additional task
i have to do. it should be therapeutic, and when it's not, it loses its only
purpose. thats why this is so unstructured, cuz i never read any of this back.
which is good, i like jotting thoughts down like this, and as long as i dont get
any ideas about *all* of my thoughts being in writing like this it should be
fine.